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I really, really don't want to get trapped back into working retail. I'm really afraid that if I go back into retail full time just to make some quick money, I'll completely give up on what I really want to do, what I'm really good at. I know that people all around the world do that every day, and worse, so maybe I shouldn't complain. But I really don't want to go back into retail.

Song

From Crossportion's Pastoral


The bottom of the sea has come
And builded in my noisless room
The fishes' and the mermaids' home,

Whose it is most, most hell to be
Out of the heavy-hanging sea
And in the thin, think changeable air

Or unroom sleep some other where;
But play their coral violins
Where waters most look music in:

The bottom of my room, the sea.
Full of voiceless curtaindeep
There mermaids somnabules come sleep
Where fluted half-lights show the way,

And there, there lost orchestras play
And down the many quarterlights come
To the dim mirth of my aquadrome:
The bottom of my sea, the room.

-Thomas Merton