I have,, I have ... I've been going through a bit of that kind of exorcism of my own, lately, or at least trying to. The hardest part for me is trying to decide, conclusively, that I actually want to do it. (I know I need to, but *wanting* to is another story.)
I've seen a bit of your exorcism on your journal in recent weeks. It was reading something in particular of yours that made me realize that that was what was going on in my head as well. Its hard cutting someone out of the back of your brain.
Its hard cutting someone out of the back of your brain.
*nodnodnod* Exactly.
At one time, I thought this particular person was out of my head. But that was six years ago, and I, like an idiot, invited him back in. Now I'm going through the same things - letting him torture me, walking away, then completely caving when he sweet-talks me and wheedles his way back in. I should just cut him off again - but he meant so much to me once, you know?
I do know. When you've got the good to go along with the not so good its very hard.... the good knocks on the door and distracts you, and the not so good sneaks in when you're not looking. The next thing you know, the not so good is bringing you coffee in the morning.
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Date: 2003-08-23 07:28 pm (UTC)*nodnodnod* Exactly.
At one time, I thought this particular person was out of my head. But that was six years ago, and I, like an idiot, invited him back in. Now I'm going through the same things - letting him torture me, walking away, then completely caving when he sweet-talks me and wheedles his way back in. I should just cut him off again - but he meant so much to me once, you know?
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