Queries......

[violachic]

Are you afraid of anything? Does this fear interfere at all with they way you live/want to live your life? How do you deal with this fear? Do you ever look at anyone with fears and wonder what they're so afraid of? Do you face your fear(s), or do you do anything to avoid them?


Do you feel you have "potential"? Do you live up to said potential? Have you ever encountered anyone who thought you had more potential than you think you do, or less potential than you think you do? Would living up to your potential automatically make you happy? Do you feel obligated to others to develop that potential?

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[prrrn.livejournal.com]

Fears? I'm afraid of feeling alive again, afraid of what it feels like to have energy and motivation, afraid of being "normal", afraid of being healthy... I'm afraid that somehow that means I'm going to have all sorts of expectations for myself that I won't be able to achieve. As much as I hate my depression, it's familiar, and I've almost forgotten what life was like before. And I'm afraid because even that wasn't wonderful, so I'm not sure what I want out of life... ...I have lots of little fears too, but I guess it's the big ones that got the attention of my fingers tonight...

Potential? Clearly, I'm not living up to the potential I once thought I had, but for some reason I don't seem to mind right now. In a way, I'm kind of proud of myself for what I've gotten through. And I guess I still have hope, maybe even faith, that I will do something that feels important for the world.

[violachic.livejournal.com]

In a way, I'm kind of proud of myself for what I've gotten through

Yeah :) Me too.

Although there are times that part of me wishes I didn't feel as acutely as I did, and wishes I could feel kind of numb. Feeling can be kind of overwhelming sometimes. But then when its gone, and begins to return, I remember how wonderful it is, even though I have to take the bad with the good.