i've read and re-read what you've had to say about your illness. i do want to reject the notion that any post you make is "whining". i daresay an unhappy person is allowed to vent in her own journal, right? So i haven't even once thought of you as whining, and i never shall. i do understand why you feel compelled to disclaimer like that, though. i'd do the same thing.
Incidentally: this all motivated me to look into the possibility that maybe you were tainted by residue of a chemical or biological weapon while you were overseas, since that would perhaps account for the sudden random onset. But i couldn't find any mention of such a weapon, and then besides, one would think all your colleagues would've been exposed as well. So, a useless inquiry.
On that note... is there anything i can do, for you?
Be as verbose as you'd like. The big benefit of things like LJ and email is that if you're too overwhelming, I can save it and read it later, and respond when I want to :-) I just happen to be online right now, checking email 'n stuff.
Forgive me for being slow... i forgot to check your newer entries. Congratulations on the new treatment regimen and new outlook on things. Getting saddled with inconsiderate / incompetent / unhelpful doctors is nightmarish. i'm glad you're moving forward with people who seem to actually listen.
I've friended you, so if you're interested, you have access to any friends-only entries I make. I don't make them often, but... sometimes. I'm also putting you on my contact info (http://violachic.livejournal.com/491394.html) filter.
Thank you. i sense that perhaps we may not have a lot to say to one another most of the time, yet, i do appreciate your goodwill towards me anyway.
i've friended you as well. There's a lot of negativity in there, though, and i figure you've got enough on your mind.
Your recent post about "relying on others for happiness" is kind of a stop-and-think sort of thing to me. Because i've spent my entire life relying on others for my happiness. So what is new and somewhat unhappy for you, is basically same-old familiar to me.
i can only try to imagine how you feel... i'm sorry that you don't like the situation. Hopefully your new treatments will allow you to change things.
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Date: 2006-08-31 01:01 pm (UTC)Me, with a healthy body dragged along by a decaying soul.
How cosmically inane.
If i could give you my health, i would.
In lieu of that, i offer you a fumbling attempt at praise... you've always been one of the most inspiring human beings i've ever known.
i deeply hope you get your life back.
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Date: 2006-08-31 01:31 pm (UTC)If you're interested in coming back, I'll welcome you with open arms.
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Date: 2006-08-31 02:18 pm (UTC)You're welcome. And, thank you.
i've read and re-read what you've had to say about your illness. i do want to reject the notion that any post you make is "whining". i daresay an unhappy person is allowed to vent in her own journal, right? So i haven't even once thought of you as whining, and i never shall. i do understand why you feel compelled to disclaimer like that, though. i'd do the same thing.
Incidentally: this all motivated me to look into the possibility that maybe you were tainted by residue of a chemical or biological weapon while you were overseas, since that would perhaps account for the sudden random onset. But i couldn't find any mention of such a weapon, and then besides, one would think all your colleagues would've been exposed as well. So, a useless inquiry.
On that note... is there anything i can do, for you?
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Date: 2006-08-31 10:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-31 10:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-08-31 10:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-01 02:17 pm (UTC)Forgive me for being slow... i forgot to check your newer entries. Congratulations on the new treatment regimen and new outlook on things. Getting saddled with inconsiderate / incompetent / unhelpful doctors is nightmarish. i'm glad you're moving forward with people who seem to actually listen.
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Date: 2006-09-04 08:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-09-04 01:24 pm (UTC)i've friended you as well. There's a lot of negativity in there, though, and i figure you've got enough on your mind.
Your recent post about "relying on others for happiness" is kind of a stop-and-think sort of thing to me. Because i've spent my entire life relying on others for my happiness. So what is new and somewhat unhappy for you, is basically same-old familiar to me.
i can only try to imagine how you feel... i'm sorry that you don't like the situation. Hopefully your new treatments will allow you to change things.