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Nov. 27th, 2002 11:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
violachicWow. I went back 105 posts on my friends page, and STILL didn't read everything that has happened since I was last online. That'll teach me! Or...something....yeah...
Anyway, I just got back from the first Nutcracker rehearsal. Went fairly well in the long run, especially considering I've never played the entire ballet before. And I have two days in which to redeem myself before the next rehearsal. I was a bit distracted, though, which probably counted to about 67% of my mistakes. I'm playing for the dance company that Paul's daughter is in, and I noticed she is still there. She is a guest in the party scene, a snowflake, and a flower. I couldn't believe how good she has gotten! I also couldn't believe she is still there. I would have thought she'd have moved onto something bigger and better by now. So there was probably more on my mind than needed to be. I didn't think it would affect me so much to see her. Unfortunatly, memories of being with Paul also came flooding back, which certainly didn't help either. But I'm over it now. Really, I am!
So I went out and got myself a menorah. I wasn't going to, really I wasn't. But I was on a search for dreidles (long story...) and I ended up at this one shop with a really really sweet proprietor lady, and she had the most BEAUTIFUL dreidles and menorahs (I didn't spring for the $25 alabaster-inlaid dreidle- I bought a $7.50 russian made one from her, and a couple $2 wooden ones from Pier 1). I've been drawn to Jewish customs, tradition and culture all my life, on top of the studies I've done with it via my world religion courses. So I decided, what the heck, and splurged for the menorah and candles. It looks so pretty on my table! Hannukah starts Friday night. Maybe its the time and current events that make it even more special to me. The whole idea of all these festivals of light seems heartening, I guess. I set up my menorah as I listened to a Manneheim Steamroller Christmas CD. And instead of feeling out of place or weird, it actually gave me the most overwhelming sense of peace. Don't know why. But I guess it doesn't matter why.
CAUTION: My level of sentimental-ism that I've been experiencing the last few months is heightening dangerously as the holiday season approaches. Hopefully I can get through the season without tearing up at every Christmas song. Consider yourselves warned!
Anyway, I just got back from the first Nutcracker rehearsal. Went fairly well in the long run, especially considering I've never played the entire ballet before. And I have two days in which to redeem myself before the next rehearsal. I was a bit distracted, though, which probably counted to about 67% of my mistakes. I'm playing for the dance company that Paul's daughter is in, and I noticed she is still there. She is a guest in the party scene, a snowflake, and a flower. I couldn't believe how good she has gotten! I also couldn't believe she is still there. I would have thought she'd have moved onto something bigger and better by now. So there was probably more on my mind than needed to be. I didn't think it would affect me so much to see her. Unfortunatly, memories of being with Paul also came flooding back, which certainly didn't help either. But I'm over it now. Really, I am!
So I went out and got myself a menorah. I wasn't going to, really I wasn't. But I was on a search for dreidles (long story...) and I ended up at this one shop with a really really sweet proprietor lady, and she had the most BEAUTIFUL dreidles and menorahs (I didn't spring for the $25 alabaster-inlaid dreidle- I bought a $7.50 russian made one from her, and a couple $2 wooden ones from Pier 1). I've been drawn to Jewish customs, tradition and culture all my life, on top of the studies I've done with it via my world religion courses. So I decided, what the heck, and splurged for the menorah and candles. It looks so pretty on my table! Hannukah starts Friday night. Maybe its the time and current events that make it even more special to me. The whole idea of all these festivals of light seems heartening, I guess. I set up my menorah as I listened to a Manneheim Steamroller Christmas CD. And instead of feeling out of place or weird, it actually gave me the most overwhelming sense of peace. Don't know why. But I guess it doesn't matter why.
CAUTION: My level of sentimental-ism that I've been experiencing the last few months is heightening dangerously as the holiday season approaches. Hopefully I can get through the season without tearing up at every Christmas song. Consider yourselves warned!
