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Israel looks to expand barrier



Sometimes it feels as if the fight for justice is futile. But I suppose one has to remember how bad it could be if no one was fighting at all.



The picture of the "separation barrier" in this icon was taken in Bethlehem a little over two years ago. The gap showing has long since been closed. There are exactly two ways to get in and out of this ancient and holy city. Tourists can do it- if they want the hassle. Palestinians are either not allowed in to the city, or, if they are Bethlehem residents, not allowed out.

I wish I could take everybody over there and show them what's going on. I really do.

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So my whole life I've had nightmares. Ever since I can remember. As a very small child- maybe three or four- I remember that if I'd wake up from a nightmare, I'd keep my eyes screwed shut and scream for my mom until she came and made it all better.

As I got older, I learned to just kind of deal with it. I eventually got to the point where I was sort of semi-lucid dreaming; I could never actually control my own actions within the dream, but at least I often knew I was dreaming at some point in the dream, and could try to wake myself up. But its never been a huge surprise that I'm prone to nightmares. I'm sensitive- probably overly so- and I have a very active imagination. Put those together with the fact that I've probably never been a good sleeper, and tend to spend a lot of time in REM (usually happening between Stage 3 and Stage 4 sleep, although in Pain Camp we were taught that it is actually linked with Stage 3) sleep without getting to Stage 4 (probably one reason why I get sick so much, and my body is now wigged out beyond repair- Stage 4 sleep is the restorative, healing level of sleep), giving lots of room for dream and nightmare fodder to grow.



So my entire household is now completely invested in making our way through The Lost Room. Last night we watched the second of three installments.

Then I went to bed.

Then I had a nightmare that felt terrifying when I was in it, but after waking up, I realized it was directly influenced by watching the show. I believe I'd like to watch the last 2-hour segment in broad daylight. Other than that, I highly recommend getting your hands on this mini-series. It is excellent.


But anyway. That's why I'm awake and posting at 6 am. I'm hoping I can get back to sleep for a few hours now- I actually have a relatively big day ahead of me.