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[violachic]

After two straight days of lying in bed like overcooked asparagus, I'm starting to feel a little better. In hindsight, I've probably been ill, or at least been in the "coming down with something" stage since at least Saturday. My Illness Hindsight never fails to amaze me. By this, I mean that I can be sick, or getting sick, for sometimes up to a week without really realizing it and then *WHABAMM* one day wake up thinking I'm going to die. That part came today. The good news attached to this little epiphany is that it means I'm not going crazy. Uh...well...I probably AM going crazy, but the symptoms manifest themselves differently....but anyway... Having a particularly uncomfortable verison of the flu definitely explains my crankiness and exhaustion the last few days. Next time I feel like I want to crawl in a hole and die I will stop to re-evaluate my health.
I DO want to take a moment, tho, to apologize if I've been distant or cold, or just plain obnoxious to anybody the last few weeks. I've got a shitload of weird stuff on my mind, and mostly I'm paralyzed by indecision. I'm hoping I haven't pissed anyone off.

Mazel Tov and good luck to Syd in his romantic endeavours.

Wondering where Sarah went?

Hoping Libs can live through her men debacle.

Loving you all :-D

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[ex-divalibby633.livejournal.com]

*in my best Mark voice*

"Duuuude, I'll survive."

You will figure it all out. I dont know what to say to you, cause I dont know the backinfo, like why you are worried about making these huge decisions right now. My (not so hmble) opinion is that you are a good teacher, and you shouldnt sell yourself short there. You ARE doing good things for your community. You are bringing them music, which helps to heal many wounds you couldnt otherwise salve. Emotional ones. You and I know that more implicitly than some, I think....as classical musicians, but almost everyone I know considers music (in whatever form they choose) to be a place for healing, thinking, meditation, etc.

There are ways to preach without being the pastor. I made the decision for music(at least at this point in my life) when Amy Ghodes-Luhman wanted me to go to seminary. Anyway, I'm too much of a slut for seminary. Maybe it would be better for you. But it's not going away....you can do it now, or you can do it in 20 years....the only thing that will change (and mature) in that time is you.

ok, so now I sound like a preacher/social worker.......amazing how my tone changes overnight??

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[violachic.livejournal.com]

Who said I wanted to preach? I'd hate being a pastor. Anyway, I don't think "slut" or "not a slut" is a category you check on your seminary application, even if you are, which you're not. Don't get down on yourself. By the way, if you run across it, I'd like an email address for Amy. (don't you get a kick out of how much easier it is to run someone else's life than your own? hehe)

[unhappymeal.livejournal.com]

You need to take a nice warm bath in chicken soup, my dear.

[legendofthehawk.livejournal.com]

*bawk*...

*bawk* I say..

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[violachic.livejournal.com]

I think that translates as Sarah saying: "I wanna come take a bath in chicken soup with you". Correct me if I'm wrong?

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[violachic.livejournal.com]

I have no good response to that... think of me while you are all eating wild game tonight :-(