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[violachic]

There's so much pain and distress and injustice in the world. I guess it can really overwhelm me sometimes. I can't sit still to watch the news or read the newspaper. I try to do what I think is right- be nice to people, encourage somebody, try to stand up for my beliefs. But it doesn't feel like enough. I look around at my surroundings and know that anything I might be capable of hardly even makes a dent. What more can I do? I'm don't have the skills to do what is necessary, I don't have the attitude, the confidence. There is so much wrong with so much that I can't fix. Somehow, there is still prejudice, racism, poverty, injustice, apathy. I get so enraged, but then I'm just sad- sad and daunted sometimes. Other times just sad and heartbroken. There are some really incredible people out there that can and are doing some great things. I really envy them. I envy them their passion, their articulation and motivation. I hear Dr. King's speeches and wonder how people like him were so touched as to receive a gift as he did, and how he developed into using such a gift. I can only pray that someday I might be able to actually make a difference. It doesn't have to be a big deal infamous type difference. I think about the people who have a made a difference in my life and what it took. Mostly it was just someone who decided they had something really nice to say, making me feel like I mattered. I hope someday everyone will matter. I really look forward to the day that simply opening the newspaper doesn't make my heart skip, and watching the evening news doesn't make me cold with fear for the world. Is that going to happen anytime soon?








Its up to you to decide.