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I had an absolutely terrifying nightmare last night. Not the heart-pounding, yeling-in-your-sleep, jerk-awake kind. The kind that creeps into your subconscious and pops back up during the daytime to freak you out, the kind that the more you think about it, the more layers you can uncover. I mean, I woke up during it, so I remember it pretty vividly. The visceral images are etched in my mind- it certainly was freaky even then. But it was as I lay trying to get back to sleep that I started feeling creeped out by it, and this morning's trip to work on the el was spent mostly wondering about it.

The details aren't important; I think the few people, the ones who know- I mean really know- my problems behind my relationship with Paul, the horrific breakup, and their lasting impressions would understand them, and their implications.

The setting, however, was my workplace, and I'm really grateful that there are only two of us here today, and that the other person is in a basement office. It gives me time to not feel weird about being here, and to not feel weird about the co-workers that were present- horrifyingly so- in the dream.

So here I am once again, in the nice, bright, safe daylight, shaking off the terrors of the middle of the night.

One of these days I'll actually get too old for nightmares. I'm looking forward to the day.

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On a more positive note:

1)I had a really nice weekend. I'm glad I splurged the dough to go to dinner on Saturday for a combination birthday dinner for Ben and Crystal. Buca di Beppo is a nice place to eat for a get-together like that, even though we were sat in the Pope Room, which was a tad creepy. Especially the bust in the middle of the lazy susan. Afterwards we were invited back to rincewindrocks and mistandrophenes's place for swimming. Who knew they had a pool?!? "Oh, you mean that big, blue, round object the dogs run around all the time?" There were also barbecues, and lots of processed meat products in casing were consumed. I saw old friends, some I hadn't seen in literally a few years, and met new ones. Pictures were taken. Postings of said pictures will (hopefully) ensue. Its a good weekend when you can play with puppies, kitties, and babies.

2)My wallet was found! I got a call this morning from someone who's phone number was apparently still in my wallet. It is sitting at the security booth at St. Anthony's Hospital, which is just a few blocks from work. That means it must have fallen out after I got off the el. St. Anthony's called him to ask if he knew this Amy chick, and how to get ahold of her, and he called me to let me know they had it. Sometime today I will take a stroll down there and retrieve it. With any luck, the cash will still be there. I'm not holding my breath, but I'm hoping.

3)I'm going to be out of town next week. I can't believe its next week already! I'm driving out to NYC with my mother. We're going to inter the ashes of my eccentric great-uncle, who's death some of you may remember reading about in pheret1's journal over the winter. Then I am going to drop her at Kennedy airport for her month-long trip to Palestine for language study and community work through a fabulous organization that CPT is aligned with. Then I am going to drive home from New York all by myself, which- truth be told- I'm not really looking forward to. Anyone in the NYC area looking to hitch a ride to Chicago late next week? But I love New York, and it will be nice to be part of the family thing, even if its only at the cemetery. And then I'm going to have use of her car for a whole month. Woohoo! I'm just hoping that I can go a whole week without having a major blow-up with my mom, or spilling some kind of piece of truly personal information (like the fact that I'm in therapy). She's good. She's really good. She can get that shit outta you without trying. But at any rate.... I could use a week's vacation. Or, at least a week's worth of change of scenery. That's why this is classified under "more positive".

4)The weather is truly lovely. At least for the next few days. This, I could do all summer!

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I got my wallet back.

The cash was cleaned out, but literally everything else was intact. All of the cash was gone, including the international money.

The security guards at the hospital report that "some homeless guy" turned it in, apparently angling for a reward. Damn, whoever got the cash got the "reward".

At least an uncashed check was still there. I'll have to cash that ASAP, somehow, so I can have some cash to get me by this week.



In other news, I'm really tired today. After a busy but relaxing weekend, not sleeping well last night (I never really went back to sleep after I woke up from the dream), just having had lunch, and the weather being the lazy sit-under-a-tree-and-count-the-clouds kind of deal, I'm pretty useless at work. I got here early, though, so I'm planning on cutting out early. Really early. Like, in an hour early.